Thus far, my 20s have been a roller coaster of life events and emotions. I finished college! I had my heart broken. I went on terrible dates! I lost people I loved dearly. I made friends who know me better than I know myself! I got fired. I got a better job!
I’ve always gotten myself in trouble with expectations. For as long as I can remember, I’ve planned how an event or milestone should be and been disappointed when the right song wasn’t playing or the dialogue I’d envisioned turned to be just in my imagination. The more I recognize this problem in myself, the more I try to think of the life events in abstract terms.
Now it’s my birthday. I don’t know what I expected of 29, but it’s giving me the heebie jeebies about 30. 30! Should I be in a similar place as the girls I grew up with? Married with kids – though not always in that order. Or is it normal that I’m in a similar place to the friends I made in college? Working hard on achieving dreams. Is the difference in paths just semantics?
What’s the theme of your 20s? My 20s are about learning. About myself. About friends. About strangers. About the world. I hope that I will always learn, but I also hope that at some point I’ll just know.
So the countdown begins. Do you think I’ll feel like a grown up by this time next year?